卷一.二十七

本朝开国时，江阴城最后降。有女子为兵卒所得，贻之曰：“吾渴甚！幸取饮，可乎？”兵怜而许之。遂赴江死。时城中积尸满岸，秽不可闻。女子噬指血题诗云：“寄语路人休掩鼻，活人不及死人香。”

国破家亡，死者死节也，故云“活人不及死人香”。此女子亦巾帼丈夫，羞煞多人矣。

注：《随园诗话》是清代诗人、大才子袁枚的随笔著作。

I have been think about wether I should write this artible for quite some days. This maybe too frightening information. But all my articles are frightening. Quite a lot people believe me, some not. Therefore, those people who believe my real story will believe me, and those who don't won't. Then I should write every piece of the story. Believe it or not, it is your choice, not my. Actually I have prove the reality of my story by those dump pictures. But most people don't understand the information beneath the pictures. They might need to ask some professionals for testifying. But maybe they don't bother to do it. Almost every piece of my story is beyond comon sense. So I just let it be.
They may have been hurting tens of thousand of people in this country or this world. Since I maybe the first one who realize the truth, maybe it is my responsibility to convince all the victims.
I found the truth almost for a month that they can read the thoughts in my brain and do something to correct them. And also they can create some thoughts in my brain or my son, or maybe anybody.
I am a buhhdist, and I pay respect to buhhda. But whenever I look at a picture or sculpture of buhhda, there will be a lot of bad words aroused in my mind. Then I almost dare not to watch those pictures or statute. There are hundreds of feeling of afriaid aroused in my mind everyday. I just don't understand the reason because I have been a brave guy in my life. And I have to fight with my own feeling everyday. It is extremely difficult for me to do that.
Finally I realized the truth. It is the cheap beasts who gave me all these feelings.
How did I realized this? How can I be so sure of it? Because they wanted me know by meaning. They want to frighten me, to stop me from creating tens of blogs to expose all their secret.
When I thougnt about the bad things about them, or thought about strategies fighting them, they will scared me by knocking the walls of my room. These happened for so many times that I finally realized the truth. If all these have not repeatedly happend for so many times, I will never believe some kind of device will affect human brain.
It is really human common sense. But why not? Actually almost everything they did was beyond common sense. This is what we are disturbed for so many years, for experiment of those most advanced devices.
I have been thinking whether to expose this. People may regard me as an insane man. And people regard me an insane man even they believe what I wrote. Since this is their country, and they can control almost everything.
But this is also my country, my land, my people. I konw they want to expel me abroad. But I will choose to fight. Whatever weapon I will have to use or whatever they will do to me. I will fight.
What is the diffrence between human and cheap beats? I think human should understand what is right or wrong. And there are noble things within human beings.
Thus I call them cheap beasts.
我思考了很久，究竟我是不是该写这一篇文章，因为该信息太过于惊世骇俗了。但是想想，其实我的哪一篇文章不是惊世骇俗的呢？有些人会说是我的幻觉，这是比 较可笑的，因为大多数人都会选择相信我，因为以我的身份学历不需要靠网络来混饭吃。我应该是极为忙碌于工作。而且我还想读一个法律的硕士学位，一个软件的 硕士学位，还有一个工商管理的博士学位，我的母校肯定会接受我继续深造的。
我的儿子很顽皮，但是我极为享受同他一起的生活，时刻向他灌输各类的知识和思想。
我根本就没有陪一帮如此下贱的败类玩游戏。所以，清者自清，其实如果我在国外的网站发帖子，他们会马上跟帖很多，而且是以不同的用户名，对我的文章百般诋毁。我知道其实有很多就是他们的人在迷惑我，一个人可以注册很多网名，于是可以装扮出很多人的样子。
信与不信，各位看官自己选择好了，我控制不了的。
我发现他们可以影响人的思维，首先能够读到人的思维。这样说肯定是惊世骇俗的，因为关于脑电波仪器之类的东西，已经传说了数十年，但是大多数人都会不相信的。之前我也不信。
其实，这是他们主动告诉我的，或者说主动用一些特别的方式告诉我。因为我在网上的工作已经给他们造成了相当大的损失，而且我已经向政府的所有部门，包括公 安部，最高检察院和最高法院及中共的大多数部门。还有很多国外的政府机构，还有很多国内外的新闻机构，相信已经造成也相当的影响。
否则他们不会将这样的核心机密故意通知我，他们不想让我知道的话，我一辈子都不可能知道。
我发现他们可以影响人的思维，首先能够读到人的思维。这样说肯定是惊世骇俗的，因为关于脑电波仪器之类的东西，已经传说了数十年，但是大多数人都会不相信的。之前我也不信。
其实，这是他们主动告诉我的，或者说主动用一些特别的方式告诉我。因为我在网上的工作已经给他们造成了相当大的损失，而且我已经向政府的所有部门，包括公 安部，最高检察院和最高法院及中共的大多数部门。还有很多国外的政府机构，还有很多国内外的新闻机构，相信已经造成也相当的影响。
否则他们不会将这样的核心机密故意通知我，他们不想让我知道的话，我一辈子都不可能知道。
所以可以肯定地说，小狗狗们已经开始狗急跳墙了。虽然他们极力否认这一点，仍然扮做强大无比，无论我做什么东西都毫无用处的样子，但是我启是几条小狗狗能够欺骗得了的。
我意识到这一点，是因为最近当我想到一些对付他们的策略的时候，或者在心里咒骂他们的时候，他们会用敲墙或者弄出其他声音的办法来回应，而且履履如此。到 最后我终于明白他们是可以读到我大脑里面的思维的。于是我又再确认，我故意在心里用很恶毒的话咒骂他们，每次他们都能够准确地回应。于是这一点可以完全证 明了。于是我开始留意自己大脑里的思维，终于发现了他们施加影响的痕迹。
首先，他们一直在干扰我信佛教，他们不希望我学佛。因为学佛能够让我接近无我的境界，也就更加不害怕他们，继续同他们斗。要知道，他们最大的利益当然是我 乖乖地任他们摆弄，包括我的儿子。于是每次我读佛书和观看佛像的时候，大脑里面会出现很多呵佛骂祖的念头，会有很恶毒的话来呵斥佛祖。我一直以为这是我的 宿孽，于是基本上不敢观看佛像，甚至一些普通的佛菩萨的任何造像。然后努力修为。还有就是很多普通的声音会对我造成很深的影响，我会害怕与人相处，甚至有 相当长的时间不愿意上班，因为似乎每一个人都对我不利，这些声音会令我的心大跳几下。
最后在心理医生的帮助下，通过服用一些药物，我解决了这个问题，但是最近又出现了。
还有就是我的儿子，他是最信服我的，最爱我的，也是我的最爱。但是最近一段时间他居然会说出极为大人的问题，说一些绝对不是9岁孩子懂的话来打击我，于是 我明白这些话是小狗狗们塞到他脑袋里面的。对于我来说，这一点已经是绝对确认的事情了。这也就解释了，为什么我的身边永远都有人敌视我，有几年时间对我造 成很大的心理问题。但是基本上没有能够影响我的工作或生活，因为我本身是一个极强悍的人，我非常努力地同这些负面想法对抗。
借助佛的力量，我基本上彻底解决了这个问题。但是可以想见，这些下贱的走狗曾经害过无数的人，我必须揭露这个真相。因为我知道得太多，他们想把我逼出中 国，有很多所谓网友都这样劝我，但是我知道这是小狗狗的工作成绩。对不起，这是我的国家，我的土地，我的家园，没有任何人可以逼我出去。否则的话，让我们 斗争吧。
我已经建立了大约十个博客，有至少十万个读者读过我的文章。我知道他们可以改变统计数字，将我的博客的访问数据改到很小，但是我也很清楚，实际上的数量的非常庞大的。
这也是他们不敢对我使用暴力的原因之一。现在我每天工作至少十个小时，几个月内我可以建立上百个博客，然后我会继续我的举报工作，将这件事情传到世界的每一个角落。
至于我自己的结局，我已经完全不在意了，疯人院、监狱甚至地狱都无所谓。

以前有几次，我的网吧工作的时候，把贱狗们逼的落掉网吧的电闸，或者是断掉了网吧的连线。今天更搞笑，因为我把电脑里面的网络盘禁用了，贱狗们失去对我的控制。于是拼命向网吧老板投诉，搞到老板要过来求我不要禁用了。
哈哈，真是人才啊，一等一下贱无耻兼无能的人才，脸皮之厚，前无古人，后无来者。我是绝对赶不上的。
我只是一个一天正式电脑课都没有上过的业余人，哈哈，实在是佩服他们的脸皮。我想他们应该都是没有胡子的，象太监一样，那么厚的脸皮胡子怎么能穿得透？
要是我的话，宁愿跳楼也不会这样做，顶多另找一份别的工作就是了。呵呵，大概他们也没有男人的那项特征吧，所以长不出胡子。呵呵。
我天天在网络上嘲笑他们，他们也使用了无数手段回敬，可惜我还是活蹦乱跳的。呵呵，不是说要揍我，杀了我吗？来呀，小狗狗。我摆明了挑战你们，用小平同志 的话：“各位摸摸自己的下面，是不是有卵子的人。” 我想你们肯定是没有的，因为你们就是一群懦夫，甚至不是懦夫，连男人都算不上。
要我的命？来拿好了，我双手奉上。

我今天一整天都在试图打开中国中央纪律检查委员会的举报网站，目的当然是要举报。
但是，由于贱狗们的辛勤工作，我一直无法连上去。
呵呵，你们害怕吗？你们不是一直振振有词地的坚持自己的正当性，一直试图把整件事情说成是我的错吗？
为什么不自由地让我去举报呢？如果你们的行为是合法的，你们有什么需要害怕的？
你们在暗中发抖吧？一群懦夫。你们不是口口声声说只是手下留情，否则我早就死掉了吗？
我准备好死亡了，来吧？如果你们不是一群懦夫，就行动吧。
如果你们不是一群垃圾人渣，就拿出你们的胆量来，让我们正面冲突吧。呵呵，我知道你们不敢。你们除了恫吓，搞阴谋小动作，别的什么都不敢，
就象是一群阴沟老鼠，我实在可怜你们。做人做到你们这种地步，为了区区数千元的工资，埋没了良知。每天跺在暗处，做一群萧小之辈。你们的人格也就值区区几千块钱吧？也许你们根本就没有任何所谓人格。
当然，垃圾何来有人格之说？

周世宗举中原百郡之兵，南征李景。当是时，周室方强，李室政乱，以之讨伐，云若易然。而自二年之冬，迄五年之春，首尾四年，至于乘舆三驾，仅得江北。先是 河中李守贞叛汉，谴其客朱元来唐求救，遂仕于唐。枢密使查文徽妻之以女。是时，请兵复诸州，即取舒、和。后以恃功偃骞，唐将夺其兵，元怒而降周。景械其 妻，欲戮之。文徽方执政，表乞其命，景批云：“只斩朱元妻，不杀查氏女。”竟斩于市。郭延谓不能守濠州，以家在江南，恐为唐所种族，遣使谓金陵禀命，然后 出降。则知周师所以久者，景法度犹存，尚能制将帅死命故也。绍兴之季，虏骑犯淮，逾月之间，十四郡俱陷。予亲见延淮诸郡守，尽扫官库储积，分寓京口，云预 被旨许令移治。是乃平时无虞，则受极边之赏，一有缓急，委而去之。寇退则反，了无分毫缝于吏议，岂复肯以固守为心也哉。

摘 自洪迈《容斋续笔》卷四。宋朝是一个灿烂的时代，经济、文化、科技都达到当时世界的最高峰，但是外战几无一胜。其原因史家有很多的分析、考证，但似乎没有 见到谈到这一点的。边吏竟无守土之责，其制度之荒唐可见一斑。可见好的制度可以令坏人有所忌惮而不敢妄为，坏的制度则好人变坏矣，古今皆然。

我今天一整天都在试图打开中国中央纪律检查委员会的举报网站，目的当然是要举报。
但是，由于贱狗们的辛勤工作，我一直无法连上去。
呵呵，你们害怕吗？你们不是一直振振有词地的坚持自己的正当性，一直试图把整件事情说成是我的错吗？
为什么不自由地让我去举报呢？如果你们的行为是合法的，你们有什么需要害怕的？
你们在暗中发抖吧？一群懦夫。你们不是口口声声说只是手下留情，否则我早就死掉了吗？
我准备好死亡了，来吧？如果你们不是一群懦夫，就行动吧。
如果你们不是一群垃圾人渣，就拿出你们的胆量来，让我们正面冲突吧。呵呵，我知道你们不敢。你们除了恫吓，搞阴谋小动作，别的什么都不敢，
就象是一群阴沟老鼠，我实在可怜你们。做人做到你们这种地步，为了区区数千元的工资，埋没了良知。每天跺在暗处，做一群萧小之辈。你们的人格也就值区区几千块钱吧？也许你们根本就没有任何所谓人格。
当然，垃圾何来有人格之说？

今天，有一个网友找我聊天。她觉得我有点反社会的味道，呵呵。这一点恐怕我实在无法接受。难道一小撮贱狗们可以代表社会吗？难道卑鄙无耻的手段成了社会主流？
张某平生清清白白，我的儿子更加年幼无知，我的母亲一生勤恳，难道我们就应该遭受这样的对待？难道这一小撮贱狗们就可以代表所有的当权阶层？
恐怕我对此永远也无法接受，即便是当权阶层，在我的眼里也还是没有什么了不起的。在我的眼里，只有法律才是至高无上的。任何人都没有凌驾于法律的特权。
我平时就很讨厌所谓老百姓这样的说法，其潜在意识中就把所谓当权阶层分别开来了。但是在我的眼里，所谓当权阶层没有半点比我高尚的，同样他们的职位其实让我去做的话一定能够干得更好。
所谓公仆不是代表特权阶层的，他们应该只是大众的仆人，而不是什么所谓的父母官。什么为民父母的意识早就应该淘汰了。
那么我小题大做了吗？实际上他们已经不再在我面前装傻了，在使用盗来的Q号同我聊天的时候，他们承认这其实是普遍的现象了，只是想不到我的反应如此大而已。在他们的眼里根本就没有什么公民权力的概念。他们觉得所有的人都是可以让他们播弄的。
对不起，我绝不会接受这样无知、无耻的概念。在我的意识里面，我只承认公理和公义，就当我螳臂当车好了。只是他们的无耻下流程度，同他们的科技水平一般，令人瞠目结舌。当他们在对付一个癌症晚期只有半年寿命的老太太的时候，是否想过人性？当他们对付一个三岁的儿童的时候，心里是否有哪怕一丝的愧疚？当然他们对此是绝对不肯承认的，这当然是领导的意思。只是“生民易虐，上天难欺。”套用一位著名导演的说法，人不能无耻到这种程度吧？各位贱狗们，你们着实让我开了眼界了。

It is a true story. I live in the third largest city in China. I found he was hammered by the guy who lived upstairs because those guys said he had been watching TV with too loud volume and that volume just disturbs their normal life. And those guys just didn’t bother to discuss the problem with me but just stuck the flour (my roof). That reappeared even when I turned down the volume so low that I could almost hear the sound and that was totally unreasonable. Then there was a fight between me and over ten people. That was almost 5 years ago. And then I bought another apartment in anther district and moved in almost four years ago. But unexpectedly, things happened again with another fight. I just couldn’t understand at all since I could hear quite some loud sounds around when neighbor around opened their door, but there was never a single dispute among the others. And most important I could not hear any sound from that family I fight with when the door was shut when they just kept complaining about the noise I made. Also this was completely unreasonable since sound must travel in double ways, when the noise goes out, it must come in at the same time. When those fights occurred again and again, every neighbor around seems know the disputes and hated me without any body just bothered to talk with me for any information. I was divorced around half a year ago and moved back the district I used to live in an apartment near the old one. Still the same thing with all the complaining and scold and hatred happened again when I almost never turn on my TV set. Besides all these things, when I visited my two brother’s home separately, I found the same problem bother them quite a lot for many years. But both of the family is bold enough to talk about this at all. And also the same case when I visited my ex-wife’s home where I used to live. Then I was told about my mother who died ten years ago. Just half year before she was found affected with lung cancer she was told every part of her was in a very good shape, and then after half a year she died. Times New Roman. During all these years, when all those disputes happened, I found myself could not go to sleep because the bed was just shaking with some mean guy’s operation. And I was awakened by these operations for four or five times every night. I may find pains with some parts of my body say my chest or hand or ear or any part without any reason when I quarreled with my ex-wife or any family member about anything about those dispute or anything that may any guy opposite might not like. When I just hit some parts of my body to call some painful feeling, the older painful feeling will die. I guess he or she may feel the pain when I do so so that he or she had to stop his operation. When I told my son who is just almost 9 about this, he told me that this actually bother him quite some time and when he did the same thing like mine he got the same effect. And additionally I have been kept changing my job constantly not because of my own willing. I worked for a listed American chemical company, listed Singapore Food Company, a Fortune 500 European chemical company and a listed Hong Kong trading company, as a warehouse supervisor, warehouse manager and logistics managers. In every company I made it a very successful career but I had to leave because people in every company hated me unreasonably, even those guys I never dealt with. They maybe willing to do anything they can to harm me or push me out. When I make a chain with all these things, I realize that we are facing the threaten and force of a big institution with extreme power!! For over ten years my family member just kept cheating me that all these are just my imagination not real. Because they know me quite well that I will never surrendered to any party when I realize what is the fact. But my eldest brother who is a very talented and once a successful government official people suffered a business failure and are jobless for more than five year. My second elder brother has to have plenty of sleepiness at daytime due to lacking efficient sleepiness at night and almost lost his job for several times. I may quite certain that my mother got the lung cancer because she was so worried about her sons and herself and dared not to tell me the truth. She cannot have good sleep at night and beaten in many ways and therefore always in a bad and worried mood. That causes her the illness and dead. As time goes by, the disturbance just spread to our next generation. My second niece grows with inefficient sleepiness then gets the worse and worse record in her examination and a heavy body. And also my son, I can feel the bed is shaking under his body. No matter which part of the bed he moves, the shake will be kept accurately under him. He is more and more violent due to lacking good sleepiness. He becomes more and more impolite at school and gets quite a lot complaint from the teacher. Besides all these, I have recognized that the institution against us has lots of technical weapon against us which are far beyond our imagination. When I got divorced and left the apartment I used to live with my ex-wife and my son. I rent an apartment near to where I lived with my mother and my second brother in the old days. Then I found myself completely under the control of that sonofabitch institution. Every family around me is against me. Everybody whispered bad words about me, shout out to complaint even when my TV volume was very low. Guy lives upstairs hit his ground to this. All my home electricity appliances were out of work and I have to buy every for replacement. My toilet was stuck when I did anything against them. They can view me every minute and hear every word I whisper to encourage myself. One day when my toilet was stuck I just tried to communicate with those sonsofbithches and said: “How can I imagine somebody like you will do this cheap thing while being a professional people like you. This is mean and cheap to play such a thing with the toilet! Are you shameless?” Then all water and dirty things in the toilet just drained out within one second. This was funny and proved that my lowest whisper will be heard and they did this to disturb me and the working people are not as shameless as the institution.Additionally one day my eldest brother gave me some computer parts like sound card and visual card, I put them in a plastic bag and on the desk under my air-conditioner newly bought. After ten minutes of my going on bed just besides, some water just dropped right on the point of that bag trying to ruin those parts. I jumped on my foot to take it away just in the minute to \save the parts and right on that minute the dropping water stopped and never happened again. What kind of technique is this? It looks like should be only within the god’s capability. And for several times my water heater was out of work and drained out a lot of water. I just suspected that and tried saying to them: “That doesn’t work. It doesn’t bother me a little at all. It is just laughter.” Then that just never happen again, not for a single case!!Apart from the control over human body and electricity appliance, what the most frightening is that they can control the sound! Whichever roof I am under they can make a sound like “bump” right on my head without letting any other guy’s notice or even when there not at all any roof above me, just in the air. One day when I sent some angry SMS saying to resist them for my whole life at a bus station, they made some sound like a thunder just in the air. “Bump! Bump!”When I was sitting on the sofa next to the window, the sound of the cars on the road beyond a hundred meters away wound come to my ear like a big thunder and last for as long as I sat there. Then I realize the truth of the reason why my neighbors hate me so much. They can pass the sound of my TV set and HiFi to anybody they want without letting their sound come to me since they have such an advanced technique on controlling the sound. Those neighbors may just recognize the sound are from me and know nothing behind that. And they may make money by helping the neighbors against me, that explains why those fights occurred. Or this is just some way to make our family member suffer!!All these had exercised my nerve so much that I am not afraid of anything now. Even when I am facing the biggest giant!! But the most important finding of mine for this whole year is their computer technique!! After half a year that I had been dealing with their hackers, I realized that my computer was hacked without a connection to the internet! That is a wireless remote control without any wireless function parts in my computer!!!I ever checked their method of doing through internet for more than a whole month, study their way, changing every setting of my PC and proved to be fruitless. It is a not found or a kept-secret method to the whole open world. Actually I found the six PC owned by our family are in the same condition, including two of mostly sold brand PC, two at the third mostly sold PC brand and two self-installed. My PC is the a model of the currently third mostly selling brand PC in the world, a local brand which swallow a much bigger part of another much more famous brand maybe two years ago. I study the manual of the PC and the main board word by word, without found a single part with any wireless function like wireless LAN controller or adapter. Exceptionally the main board supports the infrared function, but there is not an adapter attached to. I tried to pack with PC with a blanket and found it could not stop them. Therefore this is not the infrared because it is not possible for infrared to go through a thick blanket. The most advanced method you can never imagine is that they can even control my Bios (or CMOS)!! They can change some of the settings such as first boot device, and relative to the floppy disk. I think they virtually setup a floppy disk on my hard disk or theirs and start my C drive from the virtual FDD. Therefore they can control my computer. On that basis, they virtual a whole set of PC on my hard disk, co-processor, PNP mouse, keyboard, etc. The method to find whether they are in is to enter XP through safe mode. You have to choose the account of Administrator (only shown on the mode). Open the Resource explorer then, choose to show all the system folder documents and uncheck the hiding protected system document, click the show all documents. Then you will find the folder of System Volume Information (should not be there if you choose to shut down the system restore function). If you can enter the folder freely, congratulations, you are free. If not, sorry for that, you are hacked. Secondly you can use the program of Total commander to view the folder of recycler (or recycled), most of their document including programs and files are put there. There are two method you can select to keep them out mostly when you are not connected to the internet. First you need to choose disable the First Boot Device and start to boot from the second. And most important you must choose Auto to let the PC to detect whether there is something connected to the all four or six IDE connections you have, or they will be able to virtual a hard disk to that connection. If there is a hard disk, choose the LBA of access mode. Normally they will reserve 5-8M of your hard disk volume to put their document when you are creating the partitions. Therefore secondly you should use the tools provide by the hard disk manufacturer to partition your hard disk and try not leave a single byte left. And then you should choose to boot from your CD to view the partition, use Smart disk if you can. If you see several MB of space in raw condition, use that document to change the partition to some very old and seldom used format say BBS or something. Then they will not able to virtual a partition for their usage. Additionally you will have use to quota function in the property of your partition, strict the quota function to 1 kb for every user and set up a unlimited quota for yourself. These will keep them from most of the controlling function, but since the connection still exists, not completely. I can control my PC mostly after a whole year of fighting and studying. Do I win the maybe most advanced hacker in the world? With my bare hand and never in a classroom for PC? I don’t know. But I can do most of things as I wish now. And now I am facing the question of the revenge of my mother’s dead and the protection of our children. How can I find the way to win? This is the only way I can use since I don’t have any evidence to call the police or for help from the government. I don’t think they are working for the government since none of our family is involved with any political party or action or ever break the law to arouse such a big problem. I regard that their real goal is money and they are invited by one or some of mean enemy to one of our family member. And they don’t ever invent all those technique to just to disturb our family. That is too costly and they are not stupid enough to do so. Therefore there maybe tens of thousand of people around the world are suffering from their operation and knowing nothing about the things behind or even where the harm comes. If you feel anything similar, try some of my method to identify, I will publish my e-mail later and also my real place later. Let us share the feeling and fight for our freedom and our future. Actually they leave evidence everywhere when they are working like sharing the desktop of my PC to a lot people, but those people surely dare not to talk under the pressure. But if it is a authority party to work, things are completely different.
Every time I post any little information to the net, they will follow me by post lots of things pretending to be different people. They will say I am a big liar or idiot or something. Please read my words and theirs thoroughly, but make your own judgment. I am forty. I have a 9-year-old son. I am getting my MBA degree on next January since I have passed all the examination. I am a former logistics manager to a Fortune 500 European company and a public-listed Hong Kong company. I earned two hundred thousand a year which is quite a sum in China. Am I stupid enough to risk my entire future career and also my son’s to tell a lie or joke like this? I spent two whole day to write this and my time is quite a treasure to me. Since I had been setup for so many times, before I realized the whole truth, I just grab anything I can to help myself. I did read some secret and sensitive information from open-to-public (over one hundred people) documents and saved those documents to my disk. They used this for an excuse for controlling my PC but I can tell all were begun long before. For those people who have already found something, please let us share the information. If you don’t care, just neglect all these. But if you do care that some good people are being trapped for over ten years and suffer for three generations, please offer your help, whatever it is. The god is looking, trust me. It has been almost ten times that I dream of what will happen and all those really happened. I am doomed to do all these because it is from the god’s (the Chinese god or the western god) willing. Trust me and you will trust god at the same time. I am ready to be put to jail or hospital claimed to be out of my mind. If it is my fate, I will accept. It is much more difficult and painful when I know the truth of my mother’s dead and those harming action against our children without doing anything. I am offering my whole career and also my life. I will surely take the risk. My email address is this: wave_learner@163.com

前天，我又去见了一份不错的工作，是一个国内著名的上市公司的物流总监。谈是谈得很好，相信我的学历，资历和能力都是非常有竞争力的。 但是，我没有抱太大的希望。因为只要他们要做事情，毁掉这个机会，或者说毁掉我的任何机会，都不是太难做到的。所以，我还是以平常心待之。做该做的事情，做能够控制的事情，至于不能控制的，把他交到上苍的手上